HAHAHA i'm blogging!

okay. school's been okay. OHMYGOD you just have to try sitting beside sarah and ida. they're damn noisy lah! you just cannot pair the two of them up. and i thought i was the super retarded one. sheesh.

haha so yesterday, rauf and rafi came over to our house to STUDY. so they break fast at our house and you should just see what rafi ate. he ate practically everything there was on the table. haha. then yaddayadda, we went to kampong glam and geylang to see the bazaar with di's family and my another aunt and yaddayadda. hahaha it was fun, and i enjoyed everyone's company. i swear i laughed till my stomach was aching. and i reached home at 4 AM!

yesterday...

-i learnt that i was from the descent of the indian merchants and businessmen. means i'm not from the descendant of slaves!
-i learnt that my mother tongue is actually tamil but im the way i am now because my family was brought up in the malay community. imagine me looking like an indian. cooooooolZXZXZXZ! O_O i knew i was an indian but i never bothered asking about my background
-i learnt to appreciate the surroundings and everything around me. from the beauty of buildings, wether torned and old, or modernised, to
nature.
-i learnt that i'm back to my old self again, bottling everything up and hiding and faking away everything, because i don't feel comfortable anymore telling anything to anyone, not even you. i'm sorry.
-i learnt how hard dee can slap, and how good she is at scissors paper stone, because we played the slapping game and heart attack, and she kept on winning!
-i think i became stronger due to the number of times we arm wrestled one another. and that ass rafi keep winning!
-i learnt the reason why but i can't tell you. hahaha oh wellllllllllllllllls.
-i learnt that everything's different now, and i can't tell you that i like the change, because i don't.
-andddd... i ate alot!

and i guess that two years of effort and sweat and tears, no one knows how much i've gone through to get to where i am today. the pressure that was set on me, the effort i put in every single time to improve, and just everything. how others just have it all easy while i have to go through it the hard way. and then now when i see what i get, i see how much my effort has all gone to waste, all gone down the drain, and how i see others have accomplished so much, and then i dunno. oh wellllllllllllls. its just that way huh. and sometimes, i just feel like giving up. but no matter, i've still got all the memories to keep with me. its those sweet memories that i shall cherish and treasure forever, for they have thought me so much and brought me so much happiness and laughters. i got the chance to be a part of them and i won't trade it for anything else in the world.

hahahaha too bad because i was laughing so much, all happy and high early in the morning with dee and everyone else. hahaha oh wells.

hahaha its okay. its okay.
haha this post isn't meant to be understood. so dont try to understand them.

(1:26 PM)